Its been a long time

It has been such a long time since I have blogged! I do miss the feeling of typing away, blogging.

There still isn't anything that sure in my life right now. Well, for a change I have finally moved to Hong Kong. And I guess its quite lonely here, being in a new place and all. But its fun to go out exploring by myself.

I have applied to 3 universities and have yet to get any news yet, I also went to interview for two jobs. One which got back to me today but because I don't have a bank account I can't get the job. So I guess I'll just have to get some stuff settled first.

I really miss KK,my dear dear comfort zone. All I can say is that I'm hoping this experience will help me grow into a more independent person.

When things get all settled here I want to return home for a few weeks, or a month if I could. I miss the food there and the homey relaxed feeling. I also really miss my home Wifi that allowed me to watch and download movies :')


I guess this is all, for now.

Getting it together...

It's been awhile since I've blogged and actually I have been meaning to blogged since January but in the end I always ended up getting distracted and put this on pause for quite some time. 

Soo its the Lunar New Year's and today is the third day. The week is going by pretty quickly and I silently cry in agony for the coming of March. Why, oh why, is February so short.

As I always say, time is passing by really quickly, lately I seem to be easily forgetting the things that I have done. Its like I cant even properly remember last week anymore. I keep telling myself that I should properly keep a diary now but I still haven't gotten a notebook yet, whoops.Maybe when I move to Hong Kong...

All that's been waiting for me this year ( these 2 months actually) has been test and results, test and results. I already gotten my IELTS results back on the 13th of this month and * dun dun dunnnn* I got a whopping total of 6.5. Yeah. Its not a bad thing and not an amazing thing? Well, I have passed the minimum requirements of Hong Kong Universities in general and that is a 6.5/9 so I guess its a pretty good mark because this aunt of mine says that the IELTS are actually extremely hard. My dad did suggest me to go for a retake but seeing I did pass the requirements.. maybe nah.

Next up is the driving test. I'm still awaiting for the QTI and JPJ but it'll probably be next week.

Last and most important of all, SPM results... In 10 days the results will be released and I already am crying in agony. I just hope at the very very least that I can get decent results. Oh these pains.

And very soon, in a month or two I will be leaving KK. There is an equal amount of thrill and sadness I feel and these feelings are both gnawing at me. I can't wait to finally get out of here but theres also parts of me not wanting to leave. I think this is mostly because I am afraid to try something new.

and I guess the only reason I keep thinking about it is,

So yeah, this is all for now~

The road ahead.

Its just the usual when you have to face something that you immediately think, oh-my this is hardest thing I have to face. But as days go on and you grow older the things you have to face are something new and something even harder than the last "task".

Currently the hardest obstacle for me is choosing a pathway to take in University. There's the location, course, economical and future job factor to consider and of course the qualification factor. I am honestly worried for my SPM results but whats the point in worry about the past where we cant change right?

For now, I think I want to venture into the Hospitality road. It seems ideal and I think I have the passion for it. Thats the thing you see, I'm not sure. I never have been. There are so many things floating around in my mind right now and I cant seem to choose one to solve. I don't want to face it and I feel I cant face it just yet.

Just one more day, I tell myself.

And here I am blogging out my feelings hoping I might get to clear some things out. I think too fondly of the future. I see it in my dreams unconsciously hoping it'd be like that but who knows just what might happen.

For now I'm trying to escape the reality I have to face just until the end of the, I say. I'm hoping I can. The road ahead isn't easy but when i think about it, it wont be the hardest thing to face. In fact I'm really excited for it.

Have a happy December, to whoever that stumbles upon my blog.

Quick post.

Just a quick post because it is currently 11.30+ in the pm.

So SPM has ended which means that High school is over for me. And so far I have um.. enjoyed it very much along with daily spasms of worries about after high school life. Venturing out to the real world, I have always knew,  is never easy.

Yesterday I went out with a friend and watched Mockingjay Part 1. It was amazing. I need to wait for it to come online so I can download and rewatch in more detailed attention. Do I make sense? I also had given myself the treat of buying novels.

You see there just isnt much pleasure or fun in read ebooks. I bought Love,Rosie and had finish it within a day, which is today. It is such an amazing book. The feels it gave me urgh. I must say I am extremely happy with the ending but it doesnt cover the frustrations and those crying moments I felt while reading the book.

A photoshoot tomorrow with my friends, I'm very excited.

This is all for now as I really have to sleep.....

Just Starting,

It is now a fresh new September in another year.

I have so much to say that it feels as if the words I have are not enough.

You know how a song goes Wake Me Up When September Ends? Well this time I would say to not wake me up because at the end of this month it'll be the Mock 2 exam. I am more than nervous as the results I had for the first Mock are.. less satisfactory. I had however, expected it because I really did not study for it. With these new technology and apps on phones, I sometimes wonder if I should cry because I have this horrendous countdown app installed and constantly reminding me the leftover days. I really am trying but this week has really been impossible as I've had to help out at dad's restaurant.

Speaking of which, being able to spend all this extra time with dad has been wonderful, but having all these happy and amazing memories with dad, and mum even, would make it so much harder for me to let them go when the time comes. It hurts just to think about it, I'd break down when it happens. But I really don't want to dwell in this as I hope that there's still a long long time till I actually have to face. My childish thoughts wishes for that day to never come but death is inevitable. 

Moving on the the lighter side of things, I have finally found out what I want to do after high school. And that is to study Hospitality. Which course specifically, I am not sure yet, but that's alright, as dad says " You're still young and you have time, relax and enjoy a bit more " I never would have expected him to tell me to relax as it is my future we're talking about. But, he's right, as always. 

Also, I have gotten a new very expensive, tech savvy laptop which I am super pleased with. There has been a lot of new things this year, earlier this year I got a new hand phone and quite recently a second hand HD Tv that is still quite new and coming very soon a brand new washing machine. All the better for me as I've been doing a lot of chores as my grandmother hurt her leg. 

There's been a lot of talks about moving to new cities for college and university and although the talks are very fun, when it comes to reality it's never as fun as the idea or abstract. But that's alright, I'll let myself sink in the idea for a little while more before I instill myself in the real world once again and face the things I have to face. 

Oh. I got chosen for National service aka PLKN, it kinda sucks as it ruined my early year plans. Well, all the more for earning experience and have some adventures and maybe some great stories to tell when I'm done with those three months ( CRY ) . 

I have a lot in mind lately, but as for now this is all I can remember. It certainly is fun spending time typing away happily, expressing myself. Maybe if I have the time, I'll blog more, because there certainly has been alot that happened in the span of not blogging for 7 months.