I have so much to say that it feels as if the words I have are not enough.
You know how a song goes Wake Me Up When September Ends? Well this time I would say to not wake me up because at the end of this month it'll be the Mock 2 exam. I am more than nervous as the results I had for the first Mock are.. less satisfactory. I had however, expected it because I really did not study for it. With these new technology and apps on phones, I sometimes wonder if I should cry because I have this horrendous countdown app installed and constantly reminding me the leftover days. I really am trying but this week has really been impossible as I've had to help out at dad's restaurant.
You know how a song goes Wake Me Up When September Ends? Well this time I would say to not wake me up because at the end of this month it'll be the Mock 2 exam. I am more than nervous as the results I had for the first Mock are.. less satisfactory. I had however, expected it because I really did not study for it. With these new technology and apps on phones, I sometimes wonder if I should cry because I have this horrendous countdown app installed and constantly reminding me the leftover days. I really am trying but this week has really been impossible as I've had to help out at dad's restaurant.
Speaking of which, being able to spend all this extra time with dad has been wonderful, but having all these happy and amazing memories with dad, and mum even, would make it so much harder for me to let them go when the time comes. It hurts just to think about it, I'd break down when it happens. But I really don't want to dwell in this as I hope that there's still a long long time till I actually have to face. My childish thoughts wishes for that day to never come but death is inevitable.
Moving on the the lighter side of things, I have finally found out what I want to do after high school. And that is to study Hospitality. Which course specifically, I am not sure yet, but that's alright, as dad says " You're still young and you have time, relax and enjoy a bit more " I never would have expected him to tell me to relax as it is my future we're talking about. But, he's right, as always.
Also, I have gotten a new very expensive, tech savvy laptop which I am super pleased with. There has been a lot of new things this year, earlier this year I got a new hand phone and quite recently a second hand HD Tv that is still quite new and coming very soon a brand new washing machine. All the better for me as I've been doing a lot of chores as my grandmother hurt her leg.
There's been a lot of talks about moving to new cities for college and university and although the talks are very fun, when it comes to reality it's never as fun as the idea or abstract. But that's alright, I'll let myself sink in the idea for a little while more before I instill myself in the real world once again and face the things I have to face.
Oh. I got chosen for National service aka PLKN, it kinda sucks as it ruined my early year plans. Well, all the more for earning experience and have some adventures and maybe some great stories to tell when I'm done with those three months ( CRY ) .
I have a lot in mind lately, but as for now this is all I can remember. It certainly is fun spending time typing away happily, expressing myself. Maybe if I have the time, I'll blog more, because there certainly has been alot that happened in the span of not blogging for 7 months.
