Just because

Its December.

This very wonderful year is coming to an end and I don't think I'm ready yet to embrace 2014. Time is passing by as if its burning. This whole year has seriously not sunken in for me just yet and its already coming to an end.

My 16th year of my life has been the greatest if I do say so myself. There has been amazing outings, great friends and new insights of life. It has just been marvelous. I can't say it was sweet honeymoon like all year long but I've gained some and lost some but its all good.

I've certainly changed as a person in whole thanks to friends. Right now, I honestly can't be more happy to be loosen the burden of some negative people from my life and of course with additions of new people to treasure.

Along the way I manage to pick up 4 Australian boys in a band called 5 seconds of summer and I couldn't have been happier. I'm known for my kpop obsession but this time its kinda different. Im not going to yabble about 5sos but I hope one day maybe, I'll be able to meet them. Hehe.

People around me have obviously been studying and preparing for next year because, damn. We're all going to become seniors. Last year of high school. Not only and I not prepared but I'm also not preparing myself for this. Eheh... What can I do? I'm a lazy last minute kind of person. Not to mention my attention span that amounts of a squirrel.

I can't wait for school yet I also dread the very idea of first day at Form 5. Ugh. SPM year crucial year...

Christmas is coming soon , I really do wish that there is more chrismassy feels around KK but i'll take what i can get. Oh and theres a photoshoot coming up! I can't wait~

Somethings missing.. hopefully... hehe.

As of lately...

Its already SEPTEMBER..

Gosh, time is literally passing by super quickly.. A month ans 2 days more and I'm going to be sixteen.. SIXTEEN.. I know, not that old, in just 3 more months Im going to be in Form 5/Senior year and thats like the last year of high school..

To be honest it feels like a year is really short.. 

Schools been fine, life's been fine. I've been bad ass way much more than last year.. And its, um, refreshing I guess. You know Good girls are just bad girls that haven't been caught.

Im kind of really random at the moment so bear with me :o

Exams like in two weeks and being the procrastinator I am, I have definitely not studied...yet. My phones on the verge of ending up in the garbage bin but is in process of being saved.. I miss my phone very much.. It feels like I've been cut off all my social abilities :o Also I'm rarely on my computer so it feels even more alien.

August passed by so quickly it feels like it only lasted 30 minutes.And Bam! Its suddenly halfway through September. Whut? What have I been doing? Feels surreal..

I also have been obsessed, with this really awesome, cute and quirky, sexual and weird Australian band called 5 Seconds of Summer.. I heard the name floating around on instagram and one day i felt like checking up english songs and whooops... I'm utterly mesmerized.

RANT-

*Dont have to read my long non-sensical rant :I

Somethings I just feel like slapping people so damn badly. Its like they never understand no matter how many times people tell or hint them. 

Stop being such an annoying hypocrite.. I dont know if its on purpose or whatever , but like can you not? 

I dont even know what to say or am I making sense.

I'm not perfect or anything, and yeah I can come across as a bitch or annoying but atleast I realize the things that goes around me and I try to be as less of a annoying oblivious bitch.There's always a limit to things and as a human being living in this modern day society we have to learn to understand and accommodate to our surrounding. Being in school, I think, is just like a pre-outside world. There's your "society", who's your friends and stuff and if you cant even survive or be like-able then dude, how are you ever going to survive being in college or even in the real outside world? You'd get punch and slapped and criticized straight in your face. 

Things like " Dont listen to them" or " Ignore the haters" sometimes, you just cant apply those you know? 

I know sometimes its unintentional and stuff. Like me, the guys in m class says I'm slutty and stuff and I don't feel it.I dont think I'm slutty or yucky atleast not intentionally. But maybe, maybe unintentionally, I am. The way I speak sometimes and stuff. But you know. I try my best to stop it, whatever "it" is. I try to chase and change my bad habits and attitude.

When A person complains it could be bias-ness but when there's a whole group being bias towards you? I dont know.. I think there's definitely ought to be something that needs to be reflected on. I, myself, am trying my best to become a better me. I try, I do,  I dont know if anyone would ever realize but as long as I made some efforts I know I will improve. 

Gosh. 

Chinatown

Today had definitely been one of the most happiest days of my life. Definitely in top 5 :)

I would've regretted so damn much if I made the choice to skip out in this trip! But muahahah.Nooo so glad I dint miss out in today~ :D

First off the island trip~

Start of with this morning while in the car I got a random call from someone with an unknown caller ID, I totally thought it was someone else but turns out it was him.He asked me to help tapau food but in the end I dint because my dad ferried me to jesselton harbour.

There's 11 of us and only 3 girls (including me :P) which surprised me as I thought there'd be more girls.

Then reaching then island and idling around as we were only the second group of people to reach manukan it was very empty.                             
Everyone idled around putting on sunblock and chut chatting whilst waiting to play parasailing?

After 6 guys went for parasailing me and the girls and two guys went playing around. They all went deeper into the ocean to check out the fishies I layed around then took a life jacket and joined them~

And damn it was scarily fun.Getting dragged into deeper parts of the ocean and got alot of skinship... Details shall be kept for buddies only ;P

Then came banana boat at first I wasn't going to play banana boat because I'm a big scaredy cat and I cant swim but yolo right? I ended up joining it and it was damn fun. Our team got the best out of rm40 had great balance and lasted for 5 minutes but the next group fell off before even 1 minute xD

When I fell off it was scary as I drank more salt water and I was like just floating then he helped me xD well it was definitely a worth it experience. It was fun and amazing and exiting and exhilarating.

And because if the banans boat the dudes kept singing the minions banana song and make an inside joke recordes into a shirt video.  People everywhere was staring as we filmed it but none of us cared :P

After thay we went back to manukan as playing those games needed to be somewhere deep.We all continued playing around and took alot of photos. Someone even said coming to the island to take photos or play? Haha xD

More more of this and that then

And some skit videos,  its such a waste that one really good video dint get uploaded and wasnt saved T T it was a video that the guys were trying to fake sexy and then they pretend hot kiss session haha

Bathing then came suria~

Alot of then went home and only like 9 went to suria. Due to being trick money for "losing the goggles" most of us were broke and ended up eating kfc.

Next came something that scares me shitless. Ghost movie. x$ went to buy ticket then idle at Starbucks then movie. Though I left early because needed to return.

Im like a lobster now.:O all red. And like a certain sun has been moody and dare I not misinterpret but I dont know. He's being so weird and moody and...dare I say.. jealous? Not dwelling in this too.

Well, today was way more then what I blogged and those wonderfull lovely memories are mine to keep forever.

Some of the things that happened was just too good to be true. I have to constantly remind myself to not dwell in it...//><//

That's it I guess :D